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Somehow have not been having much to talk about, since most were personal

Started to distinguish what goes here and what goes into personal diary, so technically there's a lot of stuff in my head.

Been wanting to set myself to prepare myself consistently and constantly for my assessments, although right now, it's only the third week of my semester which many people told me to chill. I just can't do it due to the my past results. I couldn't bear to cry anymore without doing anything about it. I can't face another semester seeing unsatisfied results, and when I said unsatisfied, it goes pretty low, not the norm in my people's list of average student. So I think you can get the picture where I am right now.

But seriously it's never been that easy to be as I wanted it to be. To sit at the table studying and doing exercises is like a dream come thru for that day itself.

Even right now, I am supposed to be studying and wanted to do it, but ended up blogging on my computer since I just managed to finish most of my Techflow stuff a while ago. Facebook is the cause that I have not been progressing much, time to reduce dramatically on FB for the semester and invest in better things to do such as reading the Bible, studying, revising, hmmm, what else? work out for the matter.

Friends going back to uni since the holidays are going to be over real soon, especially those studying in the southern hemisphere. Those from Australia or New Zealand. Gonna miss them, and not see them for another year.

Been looking into my phone and waiting for updates about it, still deciding although my thoughts may be final on getting it.

Tmr will be another super hectic day...whole day classes.

Hopefully, I may come up with better post the next time to be read.  bye for now and God bless.

Waiting for zeee new phone

Couldn't believe that I might have to wait for another half a year or even till the end of the year. It will just depend on what phone am I looking forward. Either the awesome built in android 4.0 phones, or getting galaxy R and upgrading it to 4.0 then. 

I am not even sure if Galaxy R is coming into Malaysia officially, although quite a few websites or blogs have somehow confirm it's existence of information.

I could only see as my eyes and ears could reach, there are like all AP sets which I don't fancy due to the fact I was holding one for the last 2 years and I wasn't happy about it. 

(maybe due to the fact that I was a noob and wasn't fussy back then when I was about to get a new phone)

Till then, I could only expect to use my old phone until it's almost completely worn out. Hope so, fingers cross ;)

One more paper!

A day and a quarter towards my release back home to Klang. Initially, I was excited about the thought of doing so many things back home, working out, hanging out with church mates, cleaning up the house and what not. But what I don't get after almost one week have passed is that I stopped feeling excited anymore. What's there that's stopping me?

Recently, I was quite interested in a certain phone and was hoping to get it soon, probably before flying off overseas. But turns out that there's only AP types out there, which was a great disappointment to me. I am still wondering when the original launch will be out. Hopefully, will be close to the middle of this year, my expectation was to get a new phone in the middle of the year or probably as close to my birthday as possible.

And guys out there, if there is anything that you might know about an original GALAXY R phone sold in Malaysia, do tell me about it. thank you, this is just so that I will be assured that the phone is probably still coming into Malaysia soon.

I have another paper to go tomorrow, am excited to finish it properly and hoping for the best result I can get for this paper.

till then

Pre JET Camp

Getting pumped up for my very first camp at Grace Youth Alive. Praise God and all.

I would say it was quite a last minute decision to decide whether or not I should attend this camp. I was facing quite a load during that time of decision even right now at this very moment, ONE DAY before camp. How tiresome. Having test, assignments, quizzes, and studies... mainly just to prepare myself for finals. Have not been able to study appropriately and be in discipline. This is due to the papers that I have just faced recently and also at this moment,  going through my draft assignments and preparing them to be passed up either today or tomorrow.

Anyway back to story, after listening to Pastor Daniel Ross as he spoke at main service and at a young adults service, I have been quite inspired and also excited about wanting to hear more and how I could offer myself to this world. It's generally reminding me to be an evangelist just being where I am. Conferences and camps in relation this particular subject still remain new for me as I have only attended one conference regarding missions, as in real missions. But I learnt that we could also be missionary mobilizers regardless where we maybe. I am also hoping for a breakthrough during this camp. Still trying my best to stay consecrated for this camp and for God to work in my life. I was also reminded that

"it is the behavior during waiting season that matters more than the behavior during breakthrough." 

After deciding that I should attend this camp, with a long time of consideration due to exams, and what not from uni life, I prayed over a week, not because I am some holy guy or something, but I felt that I badly wanted to attend camp, part of the reason was that everyone that I knew from church will be attending this camp. And I have never gone to a camp or conference that I knew a lot of people, I have been meeting so many new people at these events and I would say I wanted something different for a change.

After praying earnestly to be able to attend camp, I decided to approach mom regarding the matter of permission. She was a little reluctant as usual due to studies and all for her kid. But yeah, she did agree that I can attend this camp. It's only that I won't be able to attend camp or conference for the next 2 years until I graduate which was a small disappointment for me. But I believed that if God is placing me in a position to serve Him differently or be refreshed differently, then I will follow.

I also did pray for both my sisters and jeffrey to attend this camp, been excited about praying for all 4 for us to attend camp. But turns out that I was the only one attending camp at the beginning. I was disappointed at first when I heard that sisters won't be attending due to certain reasons and preferences. As for jeffrey, he was still unsure when I asked him to attend, I thought that he wouldn't attend any longer, so I wouldn't say that I stopped praying, I just do not ask him anymore. But continue hoping in "mustard seed" faith and in prayer for all 4 of us as usual (exclude me since I have already been given permission and going).

Anyway, turns out there was a turn on the tables and he has been prepared to attend the camp. Thank God for it.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all ways submit to Him and He will make your paths straight.

Proverbs 3:5-6

 I was just facing double test yesterday and turns out I wasn't too sad although I make a few mistakes here and there. Anyway now I am focusing on the last task for now, and I will be prepared to go home and pack for my camp. Praise God, my AWESOME and INDESCRIBABLE God!

 

Prayer and Believing

After a week of praying, seeking and believing that I could go for JET camp. I finally got the answer that I desired which was obviously a YES from my mom. Somehow the downside of it is that, I will have to not attend another camp or conference in the next 2 years till I graduate from UNITEN degree. It wasn't like 'oh if I go means that I could not attend, and if I don't attend then it will be vice versa, it's like regardless I choose to go or not, the result is still the same'... so yeah, I choose to go.

It wasn't the worse of what I could have heard, cause I believed that many things will fall into place in my walk with God if I continue to rely on Him.

I have been also praying for my sisters, JY and HUI to come for the camp as well, not to forget my young friend Jeffrey from church.I heard half hearted answers closing down to the word noooo, mainly due to either parents, financial or insecurity of getting friends while at camp. I keep hoping that they will change their mind, there's another week towards camp and hopefully God will change the circumstances for them to make it. My God did it for me cause I BELIEVE that He would let me go, so why not try to believe something good will happen today to glorify God, praise God always and thank Him, adore Him like He is your world.

Anyway, I won't stopped praying and also believing, hopefully I could talk some sense to Jeffrey, I really wanted him to come, hopefully God will do some sort of miracle. Come to think of it, I did mention that I will follow where God leads me, and it's not His time, then I guess I will also just follow :D

Anxieties for camp

Kinda felt good when I heard that Jeff isn't going to australia this december. I wouldn't say that I am sad or happy on either ends since actually I am glad that he might be given this opportunity to attend JET CAMP
and sad since he couldn't enjoy his break down at australia with his precious sister.

Anyway, I was overjoy to know that people still wants to see my sisters there at the camp. But at the same time, I was fearful by the thought that I couldn't convince them to come for it. Anyway, whatever I could do now is PRAY and SEEK the Lord. I was reading something about FEAR and It's Challenges, one of the pamphlets given by my church weekly. I am reminded about the promised land and the giants in it. I am looking at one now, so I will put myself in a position to believe the impossible and see the invisible, which meant to be going by faith into the unknown.

Hopefully by the end of this week, I can get myself to attend the camp, jy and hui, and jeff too, I really am hoping the best from God for this.

Praise the Lord over and over and over again for everything that is now, last time and yet to come :)

Train and tireness

Just got back from subang for a meeting, felt like super restless when I was waiting to go back home on train.

Deep within my mind, the only thing that was floating in my empty yet tired head was to get someone out to yam cha, don't feel like going back since this will be the last day at home for the weekend, then going back to uni for a few days again. Besides, I wasn't too happy about facing my family that often, maybe I wasn't just in the mood, that's all.

Left the train, came back and stared blankly at the computer.

Initially, wanted to do some work before my sudden call this morning to meet up with a pastor down at subang.
But now, after all that had happen at the meeting, I felt too tired and moodless to do anything at all. :(

Anyway, now I think I will just try to get some rest for the period of time that I have and get ready to go back to uni. Hopefully this week will be more productive compared to the last, not to mention I desired to go for the JET camp on 9 december, have to just assure myself that I will be prepared for finals even I give myself time off to have fun and relax :)