I would say it was quite a last minute decision to decide whether or not I should attend this camp. I was facing quite a load during that time of decision even right now at this very moment, ONE DAY before camp. How tiresome. Having test, assignments, quizzes, and studies... mainly just to prepare myself for finals. Have not been able to study appropriately and be in discipline. This is due to the papers that I have just faced recently and also at this moment, going through my draft assignments and preparing them to be passed up either today or tomorrow.
Anyway back to story, after listening to Pastor Daniel Ross as he spoke at main service and at a young adults service, I have been quite inspired and also excited about wanting to hear more and how I could offer myself to this world. It's generally reminding me to be an evangelist just being where I am. Conferences and camps in relation this particular subject still remain new for me as I have only attended one conference regarding missions, as in real missions. But I learnt that we could also be missionary mobilizers regardless where we maybe. I am also hoping for a breakthrough during this camp. Still trying my best to stay consecrated for this camp and for God to work in my life. I was also reminded that
"it is the behavior during waiting season that matters more than the behavior during breakthrough."After deciding that I should attend this camp, with a long time of consideration due to exams, and what not from uni life, I prayed over a week, not because I am some holy guy or something, but I felt that I badly wanted to attend camp, part of the reason was that everyone that I knew from church will be attending this camp. And I have never gone to a camp or conference that I knew a lot of people, I have been meeting so many new people at these events and I would say I wanted something different for a change.
After praying earnestly to be able to attend camp, I decided to approach mom regarding the matter of permission. She was a little reluctant as usual due to studies and all for her kid. But yeah, she did agree that I can attend this camp. It's only that I won't be able to attend camp or conference for the next 2 years until I graduate which was a small disappointment for me. But I believed that if God is placing me in a position to serve Him differently or be refreshed differently, then I will follow.
I also did pray for both my sisters and jeffrey to attend this camp, been excited about praying for all 4 for us to attend camp. But turns out that I was the only one attending camp at the beginning. I was disappointed at first when I heard that sisters won't be attending due to certain reasons and preferences. As for jeffrey, he was still unsure when I asked him to attend, I thought that he wouldn't attend any longer, so I wouldn't say that I stopped praying, I just do not ask him anymore. But continue hoping in "mustard seed" faith and in prayer for all 4 of us as usual (exclude me since I have already been given permission and going).
Anyway, turns out there was a turn on the tables and he has been prepared to attend the camp. Thank God for it.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all ways submit to Him and He will make your paths straight.
Proverbs 3:5-6I was just facing double test yesterday and turns out I wasn't too sad although I make a few mistakes here and there. Anyway now I am focusing on the last task for now, and I will be prepared to go home and pack for my camp. Praise God, my AWESOME and INDESCRIBABLE God!
