Realising me...

I seriously don't understand what's going with me this semester.... it seems that I have been lazing around too much, my tutorial has not been done satisfyingly, and that's like the most obvious thing when I can lazy. I just sit around at the computer doing who knows what or either reading some story books.

I felt even my calculus tutorial which is like the one I usually do also have flaws in it, I just do not have the passion like I used to have back in first and second semester, is it due to the lecturer teaching me, I still just don't get what is she talking about sometimes. I cannot give up yet since I realise this in my routine, just need to change it so that things turn out for the better or for the worse (which I don't intend it to happen). Now my test, quizzes, assignments are piling up and I am rushing for all of it at once. God, I pray that you give me the strength to endure all this mini hardships and let it be a testimony for Christ when I have accomplished it AWESOMELY!!! All glory to God forever and ever!!!

Affected by Circumstances

OK....definitely all I could say is that things are starting to be different.

My feelings are starting to kick in, sometimes I feel that I have really bad homesick, maybe it's due to the circumstances I am in right now which is that I need to put up with people who I still cannot get along, I think it's worse than not being able to get along (I don't even know their names) and now their friends are trying to disturb me, (not sure if I am being perasan or not).

Right now when I am here, the only ones I could hang onto are friends that I am comfortable with and Jesus. I know it's hard but nobody have ever said that it's gonna be easy living here (somewhere I am being an alien if you guys out there know what I mean).

Coming back to my feelings, I am starting to feel that I am only attached more to people who I love dearly. My friends and family...u guys know who u are, so I just keep on hoping and appreciating what You have given me, God, today is the present and with whoever it is, I thank you dearly for all of them.

I don't think those are merely feelings, I think the Spirit is working within me to change me, so I am grateful for this change and am ready to take on whatever the world has install for me. Also, I always remind myself that God is with me, so the world cannot overcome me since He who is in me is greater than the one in the world.

Things of randomness

It's definitely going to be a long time until the degrees students are back. I would say it's going to be forever until we meet up with one of the final years soon. I would miss you guys dearly, you guys really taught us a lot and rock us and our family in uniten, TECHFLOW!!!

Btw, I definitely am finding it hard to do the planning, so many things to encounter and new things that needs to be discover being in this new place where I am right now. I need to hang on for dear life onto God, my heavenly Father. Hope that He would pull me through these giants I am facing.

I have never set foot here before and I would want to do my best since I am here already. All for God's glory. Amen and amen!!!!!

A Careless move...

I do not know whether I should be happy or not. It was like quite bad in the morning, only realise that I forgot to do something the night before, registering for my apartment for the next semester, how careless...

I became worried all of a sudden, then I started praying about it, hoping that I still could manage to get a place in the apartment for the first semester of the first year of degree. I was quite worried but then when I gave a thought again about it, suddenly something told me that it was kinda a waste of time worrying about something which cannot be done. So I stopped worrying about it then I think that I should just leave it in God's hands, and hold onto Him, believing He would grant me my prayer request.

I only hope tomorrow I would be able to settle every single problem I might have face earlier, I believe and hope with a thankful heart to my Heavenly Father.

First week at uni apartment

Ok, officially first week of uni this semester sucks to the extent I almost want to vomit literally.

My housemates are Indians who drink and this happen like every night, not forgetting the worse part of it is that they vomit and every morning I just cannot forget the stench in my nostrils.

Especially when I am in the bathroom taking my morning shower... and I am seriously speechless about it already. Besides that, my slipper have been going missing on and off, and it's really hitting me hard on the head, feeling like I am about to explode right in their face. And I don't feel safe putting my things outside my room, the living room is still quite empty after the first week ended....

I am really hoping that I can find a room where me and my roommate can shift into and not face the same problem, probably best is having better housemates who I know and can trust. Still working on that in the mean time, pray that my Heavenly Father would answer my prayer before things go any worser onto the next level.