ThePlan11- Day 3

It’s been great for the last few days, sad to say I couldn’t blog everything about it on time, either I am too tired or do not have the sufficient time to do it.

During the 3^rd day of the conference, the bible exposition that was discussed based on Jonah chapter 2 and 3 spoke about Jonah repenting in the belly of a fish, how was it like in there? I also want to know how will it be swallowed by a fish, who won’t?

Being in that stomach for 3 days and 2 nights reminds me so much of Jesus’ resurrection after 3 days and 2 nights of being in that tomb. Praise the Lord! Anyway, after he repented, God ordered the fish to spit him out to dry land, it was pretty much really like God’s heart to do something of the sort, this shows that God is ever loving, gracious, slow to anger, compassionate, and abounding in love. Each of this has its own meaning that defines what my God is all about. How I hope that I could have God’s heart to love His people, for His people. I so badly want it. J

What caught my attention in this Jonah chapter 2 was about how he prayed when he was in distress. He looked to God and not find any solution elsewhere. He believed with all his heart that if he will be safe and relieved of his frustration and whatever situation he was in. This verse shows it

“When my life was ebbing away,

I remembered you, LORD,
and my prayer rose to you,
to your holy temple.

8 “Those who cling to worthless idols
turn away from God’s love for them.
9 But I, with shouts of grateful praise,
will sacrifice to you.
What I have vowed I will make good.
I will say, ‘Salvation comes from the LORD.’”

So yeah, not to mention that God won’t change His mind and He will remind us again and again when He has called us to be. And another thing about God is that when He started to be compassionate for the people and He changed His mind when the Ninevites repented of their sins and their past. Wow I could only say! And God desires from us a 100%, I decided that I should start to slowly give my time bit by bit to Him a 100% although it’s not easy to begin with.

Besides that, I have attended 2 workshops, one was titled Politics and Missions, and another was Social Media. I personally enjoyed the Social Media workshop since it actually relates to me really well, but for the Politics and Missions workshop, it enlightens me a lot that I should pray in this field and yeah, be in the know of stuff, I as a Malaysian, could do much here in transforming this nation, and partly helped in claiming Malaysia for You, Jesus.

I am getting much more interested in blogging when I found out that I could actually get paid for it, I could use it to do great things for God…and yeah personally my own funding too J

At night, we have a session of Lift Up Our Eyes to the world, a planet where God has place in our care to reach out too, with God’s love. We prayed throughout that night that we could go wherever God send us to. And personally I want to!

Then after that night, we took a few pictures for remembrance since that was the last night for us all, before the last session the next morning. I was really glad that I could be there to learn about God’s heart, next thing I am aiming for is to really be in one short term mission trip, in God’s perfect time, I will make it there. 

ThePlan11- Day 2

Today which will be day 2, the bible exposition started off with the book of Jonah in Chapter 1, where it spoke about Jonah who ran away from God because He didn’t want to preach against Nineveh. I believed that it wasn’t easy to speak to someone that you dislike so badly, I too have people in my life that I feared quite as much. I don’t despise the other party, it’s just that I do not have much love and compassionate which is even enough to pray for those around me.

 God kept reminding me of the fact that if I have the resources and do not use them, what’s the point of even having them, and I was thought again about the blessings that were given to us so that we could be blessings to people around us, which also speaks of Israel being the centre of the world map for it will be the nation that pours blessings over the other nations around her.

I was challenge to break open my prejudice against certain group of people, I wonder if we or I for that matter have prejudices against others with different skin colour, how different am I compare to Jonah who was supposed to go over to preach against Nineveh.

There were 2 workshops that I attended today; I was supposed to pick out 2 from out of 4 workshops. My first and second choices were:

1.      Can I be a student and still do missions?
2.      Strategic prayers and Un-reached people

 At first, I wanted to take up Business, Works and Missions but someone told me that I should be picking something which is more relevant in wherever I am at the moment, to be more direct, pick up what seem to be the student approach rather than the working life approach. He seems right after I made the change, I was thankful that God send someone to tell me that I should be somewhere else rather than the choice that I made. Thank you God J

I feel like it’s not just necessary to do missions on the mission field but what we can do as students is to be able to mobilise missions as well, to encourage them financially, and moral support, being there for them. I have never realised how hard it was for the missionaries who were involve in the field, although I personally am involve in my own university Christian fellowship.

In strategic prayer and church planting, I learn a lot from the speaker, he thought us a lot on the spiritual mapping in certain situations where we can take advantage of it. And I started to believe that discipleship is a fundamental and crucial foundation in one’s live, it’s not just about salvation anymore but to follow up with them and enable them to have a relationship with our dear and loving God.

And I saw today how small the Christian group really is, and WOW the harvest are plentiful, I am hoping in my heart that by engaging the community, I could have real conversations, real friends, er…. I think let others know that I am serving a God of wonders, who is real and living and sovereign, which is also my creator J

I am just hopeful that I could continue to seek God for my calling, and while waiting I will serve Him and prepare my heart till the time has ripen for me to receive it, till then I will continue waiting and serving in everything that I do, I want to have good character and be competent in it. J

ThePlan11- Day 1

Today, I wanna say that it felt like DIFFERENT…

Not just because I am attending a conference, that’s why I say such things. I will start off with yesterday; when I was praying in the hall with the others during the sessions, it felt like something or someone was literally touching the part where my heart was, I seriously don’t know if it’s really God but I decided to believe that it was Jesus who touched my heart. Only that I started to wonder whether or not, something is about to happen to my life forever, like you know, people mention that when touched by God, their lives are transformed forever. I wonder if that’s really it. Truthfully speaking, I was actually expecting something from this conference but I have never exactly given it much thought about what I really want from here, leave here with what? That’s what I ponder about.

Few questions shot at me were;

1.       What was I expecting to get after leaving this place? 
2.      What can I contribute to the society/ country/ God’s kingdom after I leave this place?
3.       What am I willing to die for? What am I willing to live for?

It was just in that sphere where I felt helpless?? I should say.

Looking at things that I should give up in order to carry God’s work within me, it felt like I have to give up on computer games, certain form of videos with wrong elements in them, things of the sort, I supposed. Besides that, I feel like giving it a try regarding politics and being on that mission field, I believed that it is somewhat a mission field that God is calling most of us to be in; it’s a tough mission field but not an impossible one.  Not exactly being on that mission field but I wanna know as much about that mission field, at least I am in the know and I understand the heart of God that way. 

Seriously, this is just the first day, so I am longing to know what I am here for, praise the Lord for sending me =\

Yet again, I am going to trust that the Lord is going to show me something through this conference, I just have to pray harder and looking harder with my heart. 

hmmm~~ thoughts??

Tomorrow will be the day where I will be travelling towards to conference site, am feeling unprepared as always, wanting to see God as anxious and as much, wonder if I happen to be real, it felt like I am not at all real and honest with myself and would say to God. Feeling much inferiority in myself for being maybe dishonest. At the moment, trying to talk to a friend but everyone seem to be appearing offline and it’s so hard to get a hold of anyone that I need so badly… don’t even know who to look for at the moment, what to say to them as well. 

Self-pity much….

Hopefully I will just focus on what I should be doing at the moment, which is getting ready and packing for tomorrow’s trip, hopefully swimming will calm my thoughts today evening. I keep feeling like I am not supposed to have friends, cause I am afraid to get disappointed over and over again. Anyway, I guess I will just not get myself too free to indulge in such crap, have to continue getting myself a little bit more occupied J

Night after finals

Guess that tonight seem a little quieter than usual due to the fact that I don’t have much of paper to study, what did I do to fulfil my time??

First went for dinner with Young… then went over to his place, didn’t know that the place look so similar to Cendi but it was way better, kinda like it there, although I regret one thing about it, not close to the sports areas where I am most interested in.

After long time of crapping at his room, started heading back for Cendi, hoping to finish up the appeal letter that I most dearly needed to hand up tomorrow,

Right now just about to play DRAGON NEST for a while, and hopefully time for some shut eye till next morning, (my most favourite part of the night) J

Onto the game!!! WOOOHOOOO

Last Paper~~

Ohhh look! It’s already close to 6 in the morning…

Need to get thoroughly prepared for the last important paper of the semester, LINEAR ALGEBRA….

It is never possible to wait for the papers to be truly over before you can enjoy to the maximum. Although, I am still having moral in around few days, to be précised, it will be on Tuesday evening, I will only start studying on Sunday night, whole Sunday afternoon, I will be enjoying for that matter.

Just wanna thank God for giving me the strength and as much focus during the week itself, couldn’t have done it with all the kinds of distraction before me, such as my discouragement in my carry marks, certain on9 games and much more. Thank God once again as always for being there for me when I fall.

Coming back to preparation, this was actually the last paper and here I am at MCD today super early morning, glad that I didn’t sleep through tonight, and good thing Raymas called me when I was dozing off when I was still at Cendi, imagine that I didn’t know much about the paper and I am still sleeping, and guess what? My paper is the next morning itself, first thing in the morning. 

Now back to preparation, hopefully everything will go smoothly now which is  before and during the exam itself. Thank God again J

Anxiousness after finals

Somehow it’s been hard just waiting for the time to pass especially when we are facing situations that makes us more and more anxious about life. Fine… Let’s give examples such as examinations and their results, if done well, things will be smooth flowing with people around you, the other way around might happen if we fail the paper or something like that.

At the moment, I’ve been waiting for finals to be over with, and after 3 days of waiting and craving on a computer game which I am not supposed to be doing, tomorrow is that day where after facing all of it in 3 days, my exams could officially be over for the semester, not counting in the fact that I am still having moral paper on Tuesday, waiting and craving just like that keeps me excited most of the time, but dangerously it might change my focus on things which I am not supposed to be looking at such as games, or ANYTHING that could SHIFT my FOCUS from what was most important at that time, which in this case, my final examinations.

I am only hoping that I would be wise and discipline enough to study until that period is over

Prayer: Hope God will give me the strength, wisdom, time and patience to endure through all this. J

There seem to be so many things waiting and install for me after the finals, can’t wait to finish finals and get on with whatever there is there. For instance, I would be attending this Christian conference also known as THEPLAN11, the purpose of this conference is to teach and encourage young adults, teens and everyone in between to be engaged in the community as salt and light of this Earth and how to be effective in doing so. And I guess one of the most exciting things about it is to meet new friends who are running the same race as I do, and perhaps make new friends in the process throughout that period of 4 days that I will be there. Based on the first Christian conference that I have attended last year, I have pretty much a good experience there; most of the friends that I meet seem to be able to relate to one another being God’s child and all. Although all our dreams are different, but one goal stays the same which is to glorify God in anything that we planned to do. And most importantly to have time to share God’s infamous good news that every Christian knows. True enough, there is so much to do before the coming of glorious Lord Jesus Christ again.

Coming back to our story, I am expecting to meet many different and inspired speakers that will be coming to share their views about evangelism and missionary in the field that we are in, be it in the marketplace, our school or even out there where the needy are waiting to be ministered to. But someone that I am expecting to see most dearly is Our Living God, will love to feel Him again, or at least expect something great from Him , I still don’t know what to expect, it felt like the last time when I started out for my first conference, maybe what I really wanna know is to do His will, and that’s what was mentioned in His Word, only those that does the will of God will be recognised as God’s child and be part of His kingdom.

I hope to get a revelation out of it. Hopefully I could come back to share more about it with those who wants to get some insight to it.

I guess I would share some other parts of what I want to write for another time, have to get back to studying.  J