Today, I wanna say that it felt like DIFFERENT…
Not just because I am attending a conference, that’s why I
say such things. I will start off with yesterday; when I was praying in the
hall with the others during the sessions, it felt like something or someone was
literally touching the part where my heart was, I seriously don’t know if it’s
really God but I decided to believe that it was Jesus who touched my heart.
Only that I started to wonder whether or not, something is about to happen to
my life forever, like you know, people mention that when touched by God, their
lives are transformed forever. I wonder if that’s really it. Truthfully speaking,
I was actually expecting something from this conference but I have never
exactly given it much thought about what I really want from here, leave here
with what? That’s what I ponder about.
Few questions shot at me were;
- What was I expecting to get after leaving this place?
- What can I contribute to the society/ country/ God’s kingdom after I leave this place?
- What am I willing to die for? What am I willing to live for?
It was just in that sphere where I felt helpless?? I should
say.
Looking at things that I should give up in order to carry
God’s work within me, it felt like I have to give up on computer games, certain
form of videos with wrong elements in them, things of the sort, I supposed.
Besides that, I feel like giving it a try regarding politics and being on that
mission field, I believed that it is somewhat a mission field that God is
calling most of us to be in; it’s a tough mission field but not an impossible
one. Not exactly being on that mission
field but I wanna know as much about that mission field, at least I am in the
know and I understand the heart of God that way.
Seriously, this is just the first day, so I am
longing to know what I am here for, praise the Lord for sending me =\
Yet again, I am going to trust that the Lord is going to show me something through this conference, I just have to pray harder and looking harder with my heart.
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