I thought it was going to be really interesting just being here at the store hanging with my friend as he works. I could say that I got lots of input as he speaks to his customers, but it wasn't really that interesting just sitting here the whole day. My butt really hurts and I think leg seem to be cramping up.
Good thing computer was handy in spending my time watching "My Little Pony Friendship Is Magic". Right now it's about time for them to close shop, I m only waiting to actually go home, plus not to mention I wanna look at my pants soon, let's hope I get these things together soon.
Thursday, May 31, 2012
Long time no blog liao..
Probably I either did not have the mood or the proper time
to do it. This week is the first week of the sem. So practically, I do not have
anything to do at all, besides going thru some movies and taking the time to
bond with some friends here and there. It’s not that I really want to start
classes really soon but I just guess sometimes being too idle for long is going
to be very tiresome and it did.
That day I had my leg treatment, so sort of massage that
puts the muscles back in place for my old injury. I have heard if it wasn’t done
sooner, I would have to suffer it in my old age. Thank God for it to be
discovered earlier, praise God for my mom. She’s the best at times. But due to
the leg treatment, no form of sports can be conducted except swimming. And that
also, I didn’t bring my trunk for swimming, and therefore I have nothing to do
till 3 days are over. By today, everything is already over, praise God for the
waiting session within 3 days. At least, now I can start going for gym. Been
missing it since I went back for my semester break.
Been wondering why so many old friends from primary been
adding me. Feel so reluctant to accept since I do not interact with them at
all.
S3 is coming soon to Malaysia in few days. Let’s just hope
that I could be able to have a hands on, and see how this awesome beast is
really like for me. Been waiting so long, it just felt like my waiting organ
seem numb due to waiting. No more excitement, only the sense of patience for
me. Wonder if it will feel good to finally get hold of the phone.
Guess I will talk more in time to come, I am still seeking God for so many answers for my life. I wonder why am I looking so far when most people of my age are only concerned for their studies, games, entertainment, and what not that's just present.
I decided that I will attend CF at STAR today since I
have that free time on my hands, besides I was curious when Chester mention
come with an open heart.
When I reached today, they were sharing about what
Good Friday and Easter were all about. There were many wild guesses but mostly
the worldly point of view, like eggs and bunnies.
But seriously, its more than just all that, it was
about LOVE. Jesus took all that pain, hurt, sin, everything that was consider
evil in God’s eyes and took it upon Him for our sake, it’s hard to believe that
anyone will want to do that for anyone of us. But He did it. Today He is alive
and well in heaven, and we are all reminded of what He did for us 2000 years
ago.
I came back home thinking of my personal problems
that I have, problems that could make me look bad and unloved in front of
others. I have not read the word in a while, I have not felt any love for God
in a while. I have been a rebellion to God cause I could not carry out what I should
have been obedient to. I felt unloved, because I could not perform.
When I looked at the participants attending CF, I felt
like someone who have been dead for a long time due to the fact that I did not
grow in a while, and the opposite of growing is dying.
I felt like I have left Christianity, cause I have
given up but I was wrong.
I saw this video that make me realised that He still
love me and wants me so badly, and He did not give up on me, but I did.
He loves me, He knows what He was getting Himself
into when He died on the cross for me. He knew the future, that I will be a
mess, I will be drawn to evil stuff. I will be ungodly in so many ways. But He
chose to carry the burden that I may have eternal life with God someday, that I
may look spotless, blameless to Him when I arrived that day.
I realised that God’s love for me have never been
performance based (I have not performed well according to God’s standards for a
long time). But God’s love is unconditional no matter how bad you have been, no
matter what u have done wrong to hurt others, or yourself.
I just hope that this will have encouraged you, I
believed that I have learnt something valuable today. Have a great Good Friday
and Resurrection Sunday.
Phones are getting more and more innovated, such as
the latest HTC ONE X. I been craving at how the camera works. Really awesome
camera and video system that they have. Back then again, I am still waiting for
THAT phone I should be waiting for, THE ONE AND ONLY S3. So yeah, I will still
be waiting till then. Hopefully, my prayers about God giving me His best for my
phone will come to pass
This week
in my opinion just does not seem any similar compared to the few weeks I
normally go thru with. Basically, I have ceng meng with my family and
therefore, there were things needed to be done and some things that needs to be
sacrifice, as such we time for studies, assignments, and whatever time that I
could have had if I were not doing all this.
Anyway I was really glad that
God shield me from stuff that I think I may not be able to handle,
and also prepared my heart to go thru things that may easily offends me. You
know like really praise God for that.
I think it will be better to remain those stuff anonymous
for certain reasons, mostly ancestral worship to be a little more specific.
And yeah, I am glad that I have this revelation for
losing weight on the scales. And that will be DIET, since it plays the most
important role, apparently it contributes about 60% of the factors where weight
is loss. Good diet is hard to come by lately, since like there is always good
food wherever you go, even in the house. Just this afternoon, when I thought of
skipping any extra snacks due to calorie calculation and eaten a kuah teow bee
hun curry for lunch, there goes great food brought back from my mom’s side ceng
meng. Food such as fruit muffins, curry puffs, pau, and fruit cake. Mmmhm, I really
want it but I just couldn’t do it. But alas, I still have a bite or a portion
out of whatever it was on that plate. Poor self control that I have,
nevertheless, I have to control the next time.
Went for a great jogging session, keep telling
myself that opportunities that I have never can be taken for granted, and have
to be achieved for its intended results. I really am looking forward to losing
weight. Felt much more at peace knowing something else about losing weight which
is D-I-E-T. Tomorrow have to get back to UNITEN, so yeah, have to start packing
tonight and get studying for upcoming test, and preparation for all sorts of
assignments. J
Somehow have not been having much to talk about, since most were personal
Started to distinguish what goes here and what goes into personal diary, so technically there's a lot of stuff in my head.
Been wanting to set myself to prepare myself consistently and constantly for my assessments, although right now, it's only the third week of my semester which many people told me to chill. I just can't do it due to the my past results. I couldn't bear to cry anymore without doing anything about it. I can't face another semester seeing unsatisfied results, and when I said unsatisfied, it goes pretty low, not the norm in my people's list of average student. So I think you can get the picture where I am right now.
But seriously it's never been that easy to be as I wanted it to be. To sit at the table studying and doing exercises is like a dream come thru for that day itself.
Even right now, I am supposed to be studying and wanted to do it, but ended up blogging on my computer since I just managed to finish most of my Techflow stuff a while ago. Facebook is the cause that I have not been progressing much, time to reduce dramatically on FB for the semester and invest in better things to do such as reading the Bible, studying, revising, hmmm, what else? work out for the matter.
Friends going back to uni since the holidays are going to be over real soon, especially those studying in the southern hemisphere. Those from Australia or New Zealand. Gonna miss them, and not see them for another year.
Been looking into my phone and waiting for updates about it, still deciding although my thoughts may be final on getting it.
Tmr will be another super hectic day...whole day classes.
Hopefully, I may come up with better post the next time to be read. bye for now and God bless.
