When sadness and disappointment arise

Yesterday wasn't such a good time for me, I guess I was just being paranoid and hallucinating by the fact that I can't fully accept. I can't accept till yesterday that I am not in the committee anymore, and it makes me feel disconnected and unwanted in many situations. I forgot that the One that had call me is not man, but God. I spoke to a friend yesterday, he told me that I shouldn't hold onto to it anymore. Just have to learn to let go whatever that's in the past. 


I came across a passage that says the same thing in Philippians 3: 12-14.

12 Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already arrived at my goal, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. 13 Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, 14 I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.

This happened while I was reading Out Of The Habour by Jia Min Choo. It keep reminding me to look ahead of what God has for me, don't look bad whether it's good or bad. Jesus is the Author of my salvation and my life, that I need to have it in me. Praise the Lord.


I also actually have been reminded today morning while reading that I shouldn't have confidence by my own strength, for I know personally, I am weak. I believed that Someone is stronger than me, and that's Jesus Himself. This comes from this passage, Philippians 3: 2-6.

2 Watch out for those dogs, those evildoers, those mutilators of the flesh. 3 For it is we who are the circumcision, we who serve God by his Spirit, who boast in Christ Jesus, and who put no confidence in the flesh— 4 though I myself have reasons for such confidence.
If someone else thinks they have reasons to put confidence in the flesh, I have more: 5 circumcised on the eighth day, of the people of Israel, of the tribe of Benjamin, a Hebrew of Hebrews; in regard to the law, a Pharisee; 6 as for zeal, persecuting the church; as for righteousness based on the law, faultless.

A lot have been happening within me for a while now, I am afraid of what is yet to come, I forgot that I have a great God in Heaven who is the controller of my life. I should face life brave and confident. Whatever comes my way, let it come, I won't be afraid because I am assured of who I am in Christ. Frankly speaking, I place my problems bigger than God that I couldn't see God anymore. Today only, I realized that I have place my priorities wrong and Jesus should be the focus of my life, not some mere past which upsets me over and over again.


Thank You God for everything, even the sad times when You were by me hearing all that I wanted to pour out. And thank You for sending someone to speak to me when I need it. I wish to hear from You rather, but when the time is right, I will trust that You know best.


Blessed be those who are reading right now. :)


Do take care and have a blessed week ahead.

AMV of my past :)

Gatekeepers~ old anime

Freaking old show/anime for me, watching this makes me feel like a kid again. Not to mention, so nostalgic, just enjoying the moments I used to have when I was getting ready to go to school like in the morning.

Word OF God

Somehow this particular verse seem so true to my heart all of a sudden and I have never believed it 100% frankly speaking.

4 Jesus answered, “It is written: ‘Man shall not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God.'

                                                                                                                                   -Matthew 4:4-

Felt like that after reading God's word, my uneasiness of the day seem to be lifted. Glad that I recalled what I needed to do when this burden a.k.a uneasiness came to my heart.

Serving God in the Kitchen

Man...today was some day that I had, one thing about being at church this week was totally different from other normal Sundays. By normal, I meant that I do not have to sit at youth service as usual. This time, due to the upcoming youth camp. The youth group committee organised few fund raising events, and one of it was today's sushi making a.k.a makan-ing event. 


About few weeks before the event, me and Su Mei were chosen as the head of operation for the event, calling people to help, making arrangements with the chef, getting the place, and helping out to get things to go in order. Sad to say, most of the work have been done by Su Mei, and I would say i didn't do much when it came to the organizing part. I only managed to get a friend to help, but she called like almost 10 helpers. 


Anyway, long story short, we did had our part of the fun making something like "tong-yun" and grinding vegetables and stuff of the sort. We made something that looks familiar to me, something like a Bento. My sister also had fun while waiting for me to fetch her to Jusco, she made new friends (supposedly old but I guess it doesn't matter), while helping out in the kitchen. Personally, I taught a new believer that we could serve others and God yet have fun. He did have fun today and it's a testimony to God and for Him as well. 


Finally, I couldn't express how great the food were after the whole event was over with. We have to clean up, and yeah thank God so much, not having to do extra work with the washing. There were a bunch to wash up if we were to do it ourselves, and also not to mention that most of the helpers had to leave for home, classes etc. 


I am glad that I find joy in serving You and others today, Lord. But most of all, I am happy to spend time with my other brothers and sisters in Christ namely, Leong Su Mei, Grace, Grace Tan, Vanessa, Natasha Hean, Jeffrey Tee, Elijah, Winnie Chew, Aisha Tan, and Steven Lee. 


p.s. what a surprise that I found out that Steven our chef was Han Jian's brother... :p

Open Book Test

Just went thru such a hard time in Malaysian Studies class, apparently there was an open book test today (somehow expected)

But turns out there wasn't a thing shown regarding the title given for the questions, I was checking in the notes about it hoping for a clue to or something. Alas, the mentioning of the topic was too general. So yeah, turns out I have to get some outsource on the website instead.

After the test was dealt with, I asked my friends how was it. Everyone said the same thing, it's like once there's a open book test, it means the Guy expects you to know everything about the topic itself. So typical of the lecturer.

Anyway, just gonna focus on my upcoming test tomorrow, wish me all the best then. :)

Test and then....*tada*

Grasp.... Having test today and on Friday too

How can things get any worse due to the fact that I felt so excited and anxious at the same time, hopefully preparation is enough for the past few weeks.

I am also excited about the upcoming sharing activity (video) on 15 November and PRAISE AND WORSHIP night. I just wanna let God have all the glory and praises that night. I just hope that my intentions won't turn out wrong by wanting the different kinds of music from the same band, just to enjoy and have fun. It's God's time, but I am reminded that He also wants me to have fun while praising Him too. I am going to do with all my might, praise the Lord for His mercy, grace and who He really is. The person in charge for that night already started to get us suggesting the songs that we want, I have got a long one waiting for him, hopefully he is not overwhelm.

Yea, hopefully, I won't be disappointed that I can't get what I want from my list, it's God's stuff, so I will let Him choose what's best. Actually truly speaking, everything's always been God's, never been anyone else, so all glory goes to Him. Amen!

There's still some time till the day itself, so might as well be patient and pray for the events that are yet to come. I pray that people will be touch through this event, especially pre-believers that might be coming. Let it be something special yet personal to all those who will be coming on that night. Believers and pre-believers alike.

:)